I am so directionally challenged it is beyond frustrating. I can get lost close to home or end up going in the opposite direction of where I intended for a good passing of time and have no idea that I have done so. Most people I know seem to somewhat understand directions on a basic level. A few others I know can figure out any direction they’re pointed; and one person I know can usually find us a way back home from anywhere - map or no map. Not me. Usually I will just learn the path from one place to the next by the memorization of landmarks. If there is nothing familiar that stands out then there is a pretty great chance I won’t remember the way back.

To add insult to injury, I do not understand maps very well so they’re rendered almost useless. When I look at a map all I see is a zig-zaggy maze of land and my mind goes numb. Truthfully I could be holding the map upside down and backwards and not even know it. So to me all maps are good for is kindle for a fire or making paper boats. (Which reminds me, Lucy and I need to sail some boats one of these days)

Now thankfully Pallas has a terrific sense of direction. Oh thank the Gods for that. It’s so good that I could drop him off in Fartown or the Rain Forest blind-folded, spin him in circles and he would easily find his way back - still blind-folded! It must be something programmed into his brain. Some function that my faulty, insufficiently developed brain lacks. I feel so deprived. Short of Divine Intervention, if it weren’t for Pallas, I’d never find my way back to civilization!

I feel a pull that I can not resist. A struggle within that threatens to split me in twain if I do not fight for my own outcome. Almost as if there are two separate personalities within my one brain – struggling to dominate the other.

One is good and thoughtful and wants the best for me whilst the other is evil and impulsive and wants me to do things that I would not normally do. And instead of each being two distinct parts belonging to one being, each day I feel they are nearly complete in becoming their own entities.

I must not allow this to happen.